The Problem Is Me Or Him??

Assalammualaikum..

Hello readers, Ooo my goodness..y am I like this? I felt so terrible..U know y? I cant trust my boyfriend!! for me, it is kind of disease..i tried to trust, but I just cant..coz I have that instinct, told me that my boyfriend lied to me..I cannot help my self to stop thinking about it..

Its been 9 day after his last call from offshore, from our last conversation, he said he will be home a few days more..

His last call was on 23-august-2013 friday..we have a very long conversation..until his i-talk run out of
credit, we dont end our conversation well since his i-talk just run out of credit..

So in that conversation, he said he will be home maybe on tuesday, that would be on 27-august-2013 or maybe 28-august-2013 wednesday..

But as u can see now, its already 31-august-2013..and he still not home yet..
he told me that, he will let me know as soon as he coming home..but y until now still no news about him..

Does he make his old mistake..going home without telling me..just to have a good time with his crazy friend?? or he is breaking up with me..?? or he's really still in offshore?? im confuseedddd....so many things linger in my mind..

I want this to end ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!      




                                                                                                          confused girlfriend

The Come Back

Assalammualaikum..

updating this blog is so much important to me now, as U know, if we write diary its a book, it may be lost, or in cellphone it may be reset..I have been tru all that..so if I'm using blog as my diary, it will never be lost..how clever I'am?? haha..one more, I can share my journey of life with other people, without them knowing who am I..thats way toooo cool...

U know what, I almost delete this blog..just bcoz I dont know how to change my background..at last problem solve, and I am very grateful that I dont need to delete these blog coz there is so many stories that I wrote, that I want to keep as my memories..

what I want to share for this entry is, its been 1month and bla3 I dont really remember..my chakya was on offshore..I think he just lied to me again..he said to me b4, limit to be on offshore is 28 days..but this is way to long..more than 28 days..maybe 35++ day oready..I dont know y he doing this to me..but I am gonna find out..by hook or by crook..I am not that kinda person that sit n watch people do shit on me..hell no!! since he was just my boyfriend, I am not gonna let this happen..I must know the truth, n stop all this nonsense..even though that I am hurting inside, but the best things to do is to know the truth..I have always pray to god asking god to let good thing happen on us..always..but if my chakya really are not meant for me..what can I say n do..he is not for me..

thats all for now..bye..

UPDATE !!! 29-AUGUST-2013

Assalammualaikum..
-career
= dh lama x update blog ne, usang dh byk sarang labah2..phewww...hmmm, actually this update about my life now, "THE FRESH GRADUATE" yg xberjaya, coz blom dpt kerja lg..almost 3month I meringkuk dlm rmh ne..haha..doakan I dpt kerja yg baik2 sj ok!! aminnn...but maybe next year maw smbung study ke peringkat yg lebih tggi..degree...(^_^) wish me all the best luck!!!

-love
= smenjak tmt bljr ne, boyfriend pun mcm lari dr ak..dia kerja offshore, org minyak ok..I know there is certain part would be different after we graduate..but maybe I still cant get use to it..I must be strong to face this..walaupun dia xda byk ms nak luang dgn ak, tp ak always bdoa spya dia xlupa ak stiap ms dia jauh dr pndangan..hbngan jarak jauh ne sgttttt susahhhhh...hmmm, coz I cant see his face, cannot call..just waiting to be call by him..if 2 weeks  dia dlaut maybe 1 or 2 times jak dia call ak..hmmm..its better than never kn...bukan ak xdpt call dia, its just.....Im not his wife ok, so be it..just waiting him to call me, is a much grateful..being the girl he loves is the most precious moment that ever happen in my  life..TQ my Chakya..I will waiting for U..